Jon Azkue, a Chicago-area doctor, died by suicide just before completing his training. I first reported his death a few years ago. This is a follow-up story on his suicide. What really happened to Dr. Azkue? And why? In this podcast I break the silence on one doctor’s suicide.
Two years ago, on April 20, 2015, I first read the headline: Police: Doctor found dead near hospital in Berwyn. Immediately, I published an article on Dr. Azkue’s suicide. The next day, ABC news changed the title of the story to “Man found dead near hospital in Berwyn.” How does a dead doctor get demoted to a “man” found dead?
Here are the facts: On April 16, a maintenance worker calls police for a well-being check on a tenant, Dr. Jon Azkue, a 54-year-old physician employed at MacNeal Hospital. Police discover a suicide note and his decomposed body surrounded by helium tanks. Thinking they were propane tanks, police call the bomb squad and evacuate the four-story building which houses health professionals and medical businesses. Here’s how his neighbors and colleagues respond:
“I was actually going to get some baby food,” says Jemin George who evacuated the building with his family. “My daughter is in one of the vehicles and it’s been almost three hours since she’s had something to eat.”
“It’s an inconvenience for the patients,” claims Riz Ahmed, an employee at Chicagoland Retinal Consultants, a clinic located in the building. Clinic manager Anna Futya, is also frustrated by the inconvenience. “All the calls that are coming here—whether from patients or doctors—nobody is able to answer . . .
Wait, I thought this news story was about the doctor. The original headline clearly states: “Doctor found dead near hospital.” So why is the focus now on patient inconvenience? How did Dr. Azkue get scrubbed from his own story?
Dr. Azkue’s death is not only reported as an inconvenience to patients, he is treated as if he is guilty of a crime. There’s no sympathy, no sadness for the loss of a man who spent his life helping others. In the comments—amid jokes about terrorist plots and remarks about the selfishness of suicide—one doctor writes:
Wow. I’m appalled by the lack of sensitivity for the loss of life here. I myself am in residency and unless you live through it, you cannot begin to imagine the stress and sacrifices that we and our families endure—far greater than missed eye appointments. My condolences to his family and colleagues. The journalist and editor should be ashamed of the slant through which they allowed this ‘news’ to be delivered.
I’m compelled to discover the truth. Turns out Jon Azkue is a 1994 foreign medical graduate from Central University of Venezuela who was just a few months from completing his final year of internal medicine residency at MacNeal Hospital. Though he was a physician in Venezuela, his dream was to practice medicine in the Unites States. So what happened? Why would he kill himself just months before fulfilling his dream?
Physician suicide often leads to more questions than answers. In the U.S. we lose more than 400 physicians each year to suicide. Like most docs, Jon Azkue left a note. Why aren’t we analyzing these suicide notes for common themes to prevent more suicides? Why aren’t these suicides fully investigated? Why does it seem like nobody cares when a doctor dies by suicide?
Since the bomb squad left his apartment, we’ve heard nothing more about Dr. Azkue. We’ve heard nothing about lives he saved. This was his five minutes of fame. Nearly two years later and we still have no answers as to why, no investigation of his residency program (where I’ve been told other doctors have attempted and died by suicide). Sadly, my prediction that this doctor would be forgotten by the media and medical profession has come true. Are his years of dedication not even worth a plaque on a wall? Are doctors so disposable?
Since Dr. Azkue’s suicide, I’ve amassed hundreds of cases of doctor suicides. Plus a collection of “suspicious” deaths like the anesthesiologist found on the side of an interstate. “No foul play.” Docs found dead inside hospital call rooms. “No foul play.” Really? That’s it. No follow-up stories. Healthy docs dead. Prime of life. Top of their game. Chief of departments. Case closed. How can we solve a public health crisis by ignoring it?
Here’s the truth: One million Americans lose their doctors to suicide each year. Until we investigate why so many doctors are dying by suicide, we’ll continue to lose more doctors to suicide. Maybe if we took a sincere interest in Dr. Azkue’s death, we could prevent the next one.
Meanwhile the only public honoring of Dr. Azkue appears to be on my blog where co-workers share: I knew Dr Azkue and worked with him. Shame on the public for their insensitivity to this situation. Unless you know the whole story, people, think before you speak! You never know what someone else has gone through! Who are we to judge? May he rest in peace. I worked with him also and found him to be a kind doctor. He was very nice and very intelligent and it breaks my heart to see that he passed away.
Even Dr. Azkue’s son, Jon Mikel, reached out from Mexico to search for answers about the unusual circumstances surrounding his father’s death.
He was in fact fired on his third year of the residency (just a few months before graduating). The hospital didn´t tell us why exactly. He lost his visa status as a result and would have had to leave the country. We are from Venezuela, and its bad over there, really bad. That must have devastated him, as his dream, since I have memory, was to live and practice medicine in the states specially because he did his first two years of med school in Boston. He could not finish back then for financial reasons, so he went on to finish med school in Venezuela and was a doctor over there several years. After Chavez though, he committed himself to his dream of practicing medicine in the states. It took him years. We thought he had finally made it… By the way, my family went through his stuff, they found two job offers for when he finished in August as well as few good letters of recommendation. A relative spoke to the program director. We still don’t understand why he was fired. They told us it was a decision taken by a board, nothing that could be done there. But wouldn’t give us the why.
Now it’s 2017 and we still don’t know why. I do know of several residency programs that have a habit of firing final year residents just months form graduation. I’ve seen the victims vilified and careers destroyed. Any investigation into these programs? Not that I’m aware of.
In summary, a physician is sacrificed by his profession and the media chooses a patient inconvenience angle. Why? Wendy Eidman explains the unusual and callous reporting of this story:
So I used to be in television news (both an anchor and reporter); I can tell you exactly why this story was written the way it was. When the reporter got to the scene, she was not doing a human interest piece, which is the kind of story that you want to listen to. She covered a breaking news story, a situation that was unfolding — a possible explosive device in the building, the disruption of the residents’ lives, the consequences to the businesses involved, and the discovery of a victim in an apartment that had been rented to a physician, cause of death undetermined at the time of broadcast. It was appropriately done with the information that the reporter had at the time she had to go live. When I was in TV, it was station policy to not cover suicides in general unless the suicide had some consequence to the public — a person stepping in front of a train, causing the system to shut down for a time during rush hour, for example; in those cases, the story itself was the disruption of service to customers during rush hour. Management for my station felt that if they did allow coverage for suicides, the publicity might encourage suicidal people to go through with their plans. Since the reporter in this particular story had already gone live, it would have been good to follow up with the kind of story that you are envisioning once the coroner released the report that the doctor had indeed completed suicide. It would have been an awesome opportunity to do a series on the issue of physician suicide and the general state of medical care in America. I am going to hashtag the TV station so that they can read this comment and perhaps follow through during May ratings.
Physician suicide is a public health crisis, yet there has still been no follow-up story. No major media investigation. So I’ll continue to report on these suicides myself—and I will continue to honor our fallen physicians.
If you are a doctor, medical student, or health professional who is suffering, click here for help. If you want to know why so many doctors are dying by suicide, listen to this award-winning NPR interview.
Pamela Wible, M.D., reports on human rights violations in medicine. She is the author of Physician Suicide Letters—Answered.
It would be helpful if the “click here for help” button would take a doctor at risk of suicide to the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline Number (1800-273-TALK) and a separate link to your website, or if you had the Lifeline ## posted prominently on your home page. Just a suggestion.
I have found that doctors prefer to speak with other doctors who have also been suicidal and survived versus random people who are not physicians at a national suicide hotline. I’d love to know of any docs who have used the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline.
Just a thought … what about creating a suicide line only for doctors … that’s something the AMA or the individual specialty boards or even each state board can look into …. after all we pay dues year in year out … that might be a service that can be provided for doctors by doctors… have some psychiatrists on board to help ourselves…. just a thought.
Yes. Agree. Long overdue. I’ve been providing this service informally for nearly 5 years because there is no such service available to docs. There is a distrust of medical boards and the AMA by many suicidal docs and they do not want to end up punished and lose their careers as a result of speaking up. Here’s what happens now. Ends up on our permanent record so folks go underground to seek help or sadly they literally end up underground (dead). Read this: https://www.idealmedicalcare.org/blog/why-are-mental-health-questions-still-allowed-on-physician-job-applications/
Nurses are brutalized by patients, colleagues and supervisors too. I knew 1 RN who killed herself and I couldn’t stop crying at her funeral – 5 years later and I still feel sad. A couple other nurses in their 40’s and 50’s reportedly died in their sleep after being bullied and abused at work. I always felt they were suicides. I talked another RN out of suicide on several occasions and she’s doing well today. I’m so glad you are bringing this to the forefront with regard to doctor suicides. I just hope nurses are eventually included.
Absolutely I have a list of nurses and other health professionals who have died by suicide. https://www.idealmedicalcare.org/blog/ive-learned-547-doctor-suicides/
Submit name to me here: https://www.idealmedicalcare.org/blog/contact/
This is something that conceivably could be done. It has been done for the National Football League when they ran into problems a few years ago.
Dr. John Draper, the director of the national crisis line, NFL line and Veterans’ line, discusses how this came about on a forum regarding workplace suicides.
I do understand that docs are interested in talking to docs but I think perhaps a larger issue is anonymity/confidentiality which the national hotline can provide. For me it would be better to try the hotline that to continue on the high risk factor of isolation.
If docs feel that they would use a doc only hotline, then raise your voice to the organizations you belong to that they should investigate it as a member sevice.
Idk about the NFL but the veterans crisis holiness, at least in the beginning, should not be a model. They claimed anonymity and confidentiality but in several instances reported to the VA or got personal information from the veteran and sent police to their homes. This resulted in many damaged careers of men trying to reach out and get help. It was absolutely disgraceful. So maybe use it as a “What not to do”
The Joint Commission in Sentinel Event recommended that all patients with suicidal ideation be given the National Suicide Lifeline number (as well as to local crisis and peer support contacts).
I think physicians should be the leaders for suicide prevention in all occupations. If every physician knew the national hotline and had their own safety plan made early on (as a college student or resident) perhaps we could not only change it around for ourselves but also those we treat.
Thank you for keeping the memory of Dr. Azkue alive. I recall working with him and he was an intelligent, kind man.
I wish I could have met him.
Truly sad. With corporate medicine residency programs have become profit driven meat grinders. 24 hour shifts were the norm years ago. Going back to them is insane. To many programs are pyramid style start with 6 weed out 4.
I was once maimed and vilified by a residency program at Loyola. I used to live in Forest Park and this news has rattled my memories afresh.I too was an IMG….so feel free to mock me and all that.
The US residency is a industry-medicine cartel. It has nothing to do with teaching and everything to do with business. It is amazing how the residents have been brain washed into beleiving that 24 hour shifts are ‘educational’. The level of conviction make North Koreans look leftists when I read views by residents and Med. students. The NRMP-ACGME- AMA have rigged the market, formed monopolistic cartel, colluded for cheap indentured labour and immunity from any prosecution and liability…….pretty impressive for a country which lectures world on ‘free market economy’.
Residency training in United Kingdom, India and even Pakistan can teach USA a thing or two about this old fashioned slavery school that has been institutionalised in USA. I am not envious or jealous of your system….I too wanted to live the ‘big life’ ….had aspirations like any guy in 20’s …..the tragedy is the mirage that has been manufactured about this scam.
This is definitely a crisis. Thanks for the info.
Thank you for writing this very empathic article.
Fascinating read here Pamela, I have some questions that I desperately need answered and have no one with any clue on how to help. I hope you can find a moment to reply and lend me your ear for a bit. Thank you for your time and consideration
What’s your question? Happy to help.
Thank you for writing this article. I am Jon’s niece. This was a tough time for us and seeing the lack of regard for human life in the original news articles (back when he died) was just heartbreak over heartbreak. He was a dedicated physician and really wanted nothing more in life than to be a doctor in the US. I really appreciate you taking the time to write this about him and to also shed light on suicide as a public health issue.
Oh Nikole I am so sorry that your uncle was not honored for all his contributions to his patients. Rather the news media often blames doctors and vilifies them in the aftermath of what is a desperate cry for help to end their own suffering. Sad. Another example in Chicago area here of a suicide in which they blame the doctor for not vaccinating children rather than remember him for what a caring person he was.